Untethered

So, yesterday my friend came over and she entertained Kellyanne while I soaked de-gluing juice onto a cotton ball and rubbed it on the gauze over the electrodes to remove them.  KA was VERY good and the process was easy.  The bath on the other hand was a bit more challenging. Getting that gunky glue stuff out of her hair was no easy task.  After multiple washings and brushing, we decided that was as good as we were going to get at that time. After getting ready for the day, it was still early enough for her to go to school.  She was free from her box, unfortunately not free from the residual white glue stuff throughout her hair.  But, being Kellyanne, she did not know and did not care. KA is not tethered to the world in the way that most people are. She doesn't realize that she is different and goes through life not caring what other people think. So the white specks in her hair were of no concern to her.  Most of the time, this is a very beautiful thing. She doesn't worry about herself in the way we do. The upside of this is she lives her life in a totally carefree way. The downside is she will always need someone to keep her safely tethered to the reality around her.

In a couple of hours, I am going to untether myself from the worry that I have regarding the test results.  I am going on my annual beach trip with college friends for the weekend. I am looking forward to it. I am also going to untether myself from the guilt of leaving Michael and the kids with their crazy schedules as well as not seeing young Michael off as he leaves for Alabama for a week of volunteer work (who am I kidding? I wouldn't get up at 5:00am anyway). People may say "you deserve to get away" - but really, I don't deserve anything!  It is a blessing that I have these dear friends and this annual tradition.  And more so, a husband who genuinely wants me to go and have a good time. Who knows? Maybe they like it when I'm gone.......... I won't go there!

I'm looking at the clock.  It's 8:00.  KA's bus comes in 45 minutes.  Do I wake her and risk a seizure? Or do I let her sleep and be late for school?  It sounds like a no brainer, but these are the kinds of questions that make me dizzy day after day.

I hope I wake up tomorrow morning untethered from the dizziness : )