Frustration....simply a part of life. I have a tendency to write/journal/blog/spew/etc. when I'm feeling frustrated, tired, anxious, depressed, angry, etc. While it is good to dump all the sh*t that is clogging up my mind, I really should post more about the truely awesome things that are going on in our lives. But for now, I need to unload.
I'm tired. I feel like my tank is empty. I feel like I could move far, far away and never return (so long as it is near the sea). I have a headache that won't go away, which is why I decided to write. Trying to make sense of it, only makes it worse!
I have an awesome family. 4 terrific kids and an incredible husband - so why????
Today I watched Kellyanne play baseball with The Miracle League - amazing! What are the other parents feeling? Are they as tired as I am? Are they frustrated? Do they lose their temper? Do they run out of patience as quickly as I do? Lately, I haven't even been doing the "bulk of Kellyanne", Michael has.....so what the heck am I complaining about?
Even a little time away doesn't seem to help. Upon arrival home, it's all right there smacking me in the face.
Believe me folks, I realize the PROBLEM IS ME!!!!!! I need to buck up and be the mom God called me to be, because lately I feel like I've sucked at it. I have not lost faith, just energy. I promise to post positive soon!.
Thanks for listening to the rant my friends/my readers......
Beth
I'll never forget the day you reached out to me because of my illness. I lack energy often too. You are a very special person with a special family. Do not loose hope. Can Patrick and I meet you and Kellyanne at a playground sometime?
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